Friday, March 31, 2006

big city nights.

Friday, March 24, 2006

paranoid android.

technology is an illusion which will end us all. i work in i.t support, and from september until present over seventy thousand queen's students alone have come in with computer problems. i hate technology. i simply don't like what it has done to our population. (yes, i understand that i am using the internet to publish my bleak thoughts...just ignore the irony, and if you can't then stop reading and go back to msn today)

i personally don't care about efficiency as you might already know, and i dont' want to aid in its development. once i finish my degree in computer science, i'm going to travel (mostly figurativly) as far away from it as i can. i want to read interesting books, contemplate philosophies, take time to look a little deeper into things which seem a little more real then grey boxes that drone an eerily identifiable sound, which some people might find comfortable.

stop following the general flow. think about your actions. be your own individual, and ignore what everybody else thinks. i say we take back our lives. our generation is being hypnotized, brainwashed, controlled by those who want us to keep buying things we don't need....why else would you agree to work away your entire life?

mabey i'm just lazy.

this is my best friend mike, and he has a full time job. think about it.

Monday, March 20, 2006

some of my best friends are dj's.

This is a video of my good friend Chris Kong showing his skills, respect.

Thursday, March 09, 2006

what a wonderful world - today's headlines

Iran threatens reprisals if punished
Former Teacher Surrenders at French School
Arson arrests yeild releif, and shock
US to abandon Abu Gharib and switch inmates to Saddam's jail
Sex Abuse Victim Fails to Pick Him From Police Line Ups
EU sees delay for UN force in Sudan
Abducted New Jersey teen found
Google share's slip after offering $90m settlement
Iran number one challenge to US: Rice
FDA Panel Recommends Return of MS Drug
Bird Flu Found in Weasel Like Animal
Teri Hatcher Abused
Boy George escapes jail as drug charge is dropped
North Korea Lobs Missiles Toward Communist China
Lee 'disappointed' at missing Oscar
Rumsfeld says US would act against Iranians endagering US troops

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

your missing the best part.

I have been studying at Queen’s university for about 4 years now. Routines were formed, and habits were engrained into my mind, forming a sort of comfort zone, which I’m sure many other people experience in their own personal daily lives. Of the many comfortable things I’ve found, it is studying in a less then flattering computer lab, in the electrical engeneering building on the far side of campus that makes me feel the safest. I don’t care what anybody thinks of the place, its lights are on 24 hours a day, and regardless of what time it is, I know I won’t be the only one fighting through night.

On that note, today, after seeing the same familiar smiling face for 3 years, I finally had a conversation with one of my fellow people of the night. His name is not important, but he is from Pakistan, and he is 38 years old. He looked over at me, and gave me the same bright smile which I have become so accustomed to. I was pleasantly surprised to see him walk towards me.

We talked, and let me tell you, there are some inspirational people looking to be discovered in this world, and this is why I felt the dire urge to write about my conversation with him this evening (march 2, 2006).

He had lived in Toronto, working 10 to 12 hours a day for over a decade before deciding to make an investment in himself: he quit his job, applied for student loans, and came to Queen’s university to study electrical engineering five years ago. I don’t even know if educated is a term which will do justice to an individual who has 4 ]degrees under their belt, but to say the least, He spent his youth immersed in the studies of political science, media, and humanities. He spoke proudly of his time in Toronto as a taxi driver, and told me he left this way of life in an attempt to acquire some technical skills in the hope of being more employable in Canada, in order to support his family.

His English is far from perfect, but his words firmly hold me in place, I feel he needs to talk to somebody, I catch an uncharacteristic glimpse of sorrow in his eyes. He tells me he is unhappy in his studies, he’s struggling to manage the work. His blood pressure is dangerously high, he has no time to sleep, he is worried he might have failed the first of his 3 midterms spanning no more then 12 hours. He tells me that in his first year, he failed 7 of his 8 courses, but he did not quit. He looks at me with a stern face: “Ameya! No matter what you do, don’t ever quit, and keep working.” He is taking nine courses this semester as his previous education is not recognized by the educational system.

He tells me about his only job interview, which was unsuccessful, even after applying to well over 100 job postings. He tells me his father is dying in Pakistan. He tells me his father is holding onto dear life, but he keeps writing to him, telling him to finish his degree so that he can come home and see his father one last time. He quietly tells me he has 2 months, and only 9 more courses…then he is finished.

He tells me his concerns about his student loans, his familiy needs support, he needs some stability. My heart aches; I don’t know what to say. He just keeps looking at me with his kind eyes. He slowly walks back to his table, tells me to finish my degree, to keep working hard, and to never lose hope.

Back at his table, smiling away, I see him helping a classmate, who must be 30 years his younger, but the youth radiating through his personality is consuming to anybody in his presence.

I did not know my friend of the night until this evening. He was another student in my eyes. Playing chess, laughing with friends, here at university looking for an education….maybe? I guess what I’m trying to say is…life is precious. And its too easy to let it pass you right by. Its too easy to take it for granted. So I’m going stop and take a deep breath from time to time. I’m just going take in my surroundings and re-orient myself with my self with the big picture. I’m going notice the extraordinary people around me, instead of letting them fade into the walls that seem to form around my own world.

If anybody is looking for a worthy chess opponent, let me know and I’ll send you his yahoo id…

Friday, February 17, 2006

ottawa massive.

Monday, February 13, 2006

me and steph on a quiet evening in ottawa. just a quick
thank you for spoiling me rotton for the past 11 months.

so, a quick story. steph and i are at baine lab, just doing
some work...mostly not doing work. anyways, i decide to
order some food from minos take out, you know, the little
greek takeout place at queen and barrie. although the
prices are very reasonable, i had ordered a little extra this
time, so i was trying to calculate how much my bill would
be. as i walked into the small restaurant, i immediatly
recognized the friendly face behind the counter. it was
george, my old boss from the real minos restaurant
downtown. apparently this take out franchise belonged to
him and his wife. long story short, we got a great deal,
and i'm going to minos take out a lot more often.